i think im depressed again. its surprising how much of a hold my mother still has on my emotions. she threatened to kick me out again. Each time i think about what happened I can feel my rage and deep sadness. i no longer have my happy drive. i have to push myself hard to get out of my depression but my mother makes it really hard. she told me i had no freedom and if i wanted it i could go out on the streets. I know this is because im a girl. My mom wants a girl who is quiet and academically on top and stays inside except for important events. Its disgusting how she wont see me as who i am. She only forces her expectations on me.